All I want for Christmas is a social life.

I am an extrovert, and this has plagued me throughout life. My trouble started in elementary school when I had frequent marks on my report card for talking to much and I was moved desk to desk to keep me from talking to my friends. I loved high school, only because I like to socialize... it wasn't for the academics. College was great too, we had a a couple groups of friends, I lived with a bunch of girls, no matter where you went out at night you ran into people you knew. This is where one of my greatest friendships blossomed. I still have some of those friendships today, but BOY has life changed. After Jason and I got married we continued to hang out with a group of friends, it was great..... then we had Jude. Slowly we had to seperate from this group for lack of understanding of children. They would go out and call us at the last minute and get irritated at us for not going out more often. They just didn't get it, and that is OK.
Slowly we have rebuilt our social lives, but it looks more like a decision tree than a group. We have different friends for different things. I have friends from a mom's group , friends from work, old time friends, etc.
I just don't feel fulfilled, and I have heard others say the same. It is hard. And I need more socialization than my husband.... so I need another outlet.
I like to go out... not party to much... but go out.. where are those people???
As an adult I have struggled with the evolution of what friendships mean as an adult, the loss of certain friends because of life changes. I take it hard, and probably will not ever get over it. What I have learned is that I have different friends for different needs.....but I will continue to morn.